Our work was similiar, which I have tasted at the Heart circle in previous months. The big difference was that in the Heart circle we have been guided by facilitators and now we have been unguarded and left to ourselves. We had to discover our abilities and skills to be together by ourselves. For me, the process was very long and round about repeating, but it was the real perspective at our abilities to build our community. The result was the counscious belonging.
This workshop was very diffucult for me, but very utilited after all. Difficult because of the reason I had to “calm down” in the time, there was a silence in the group and we waited what will be developed by itself the next minutes, so I would not plan an activity for the group or organize everyone. I have realized that I am doing the same in the normal life, organizing and making everyone happy to be happy with me. The seminar was very utilited in the way that everyone had need to make the community, what was fulfilled and we were leaving with the feelings that we came together we connected with each other and were on the same wave.
The seminar “Community Building” was very demanding and requiring big effort in time and it naturalism. Basically is unique, leads the person to express the abilities, emotions, which are very deeply saved in ourselves, leads us to ability to express love, confidence even the disagreement to face the problems. The silence was the inner shelter, as even people hardly knew, we were creating. It claimed very much ambitions, fearless. It enabled me to accept my fears in the cirle of people, to clean my body and soul.
I appreciate my time and other´s time, I appreciate my words and words of others, I found out how much “sauce” is in the communication and the rule to say your name has the magical power not to talk “anything” only because there is a silent.
I am taking out from the seminar the following: I am here and now, union of the community, I speak only when I have to speak, I speak to a concrete problem, I speak not as “human” but as “me”, If I talk to others I talk to them with saying their names, I felt secure, I felt absolute acceptance….I very appreciate this weekend!
The seminar did not give me a chance to be at least for a while in real community, but even despite this, it was very helpful as ever. It activated something inside me and now I am finally able to do somethig with me. I was not able to do something inside me before, even I have gone throught many workshops and seminars. I was still big theorist, the practice was not coming into me. This workshop was able to wash off something and finally I looked at me better and I saw that I do not really want some things in me anymore. I am changing. It is possible now.